Today is my country's 50th years Merdeka Celebration. Happy National's Day to all Malaysian.
I grateful and happy to be one of 2millions Malaysians. Yesterday night I went to KLCC, but actually its near the LRT Ampang to watch fireworks with my mum and uncle. but sadly,there were no fireworks..asdfghasdfghasdfgh!!!~ FCUK...how come no fireworks...it's merdeka right,then there should have fireworks rite! its okay...maybe next time or during 2008 New Year(hopefully). Then we headed to Kg Baru for dinner and straightly went back home. Not much activities,because i not feeling so well..~PMS~

Then,this morning i supposed to watch erry on RTM1.., to see he "kawad"s at the National Parade. However, I overslept..huhuhuhu.. B,i sorry...btw, he told me that he wore the old skool police uniform (brown color).

I just hanged out the phone. I called TAJAM, why can't I call him?
There’s nothing wrong rite! We’re just a friend! It’s been a long time we don’t talk/contact each others. Not because we were fighting or lost contact...but it because we both had other commitments. I did and do miss him a lot. We used to be so close, we were more than just a friend. I love him not because I loved him, but I do love him because of our friendship. There’s nothing can tear us apart even we both have our own partner. The bond of friendship in our relationship makes me feel grateful because Allah has given me HIM as a gift.

Even there’s was a HISTORY between us but that’s what LIFE is about. No one can question it? Or even question our relationship status. That’s not important to me, and I never quiet think about it. He's still my Tajam and the only Tajam in my life. Ya, I do admit that he used to break my heart and feeling. And he did it twice but a bond of our friendship makes me want to be with HIM. And I am a kind of person that forgives but not forget.

We do talked a lot about our life. He did ask me whether I do love him or not? And he even cried because he felt bad about himself for not take care my mum back in JB. Tajam loves my mum so much. He even worries about her. He's do apologized to me for not act upon his intention. We both cried! Share the same feeling.

To Tajam,
I always forgive you even you had broken my heart twice.
Plus, you rarely appreciate me in you life.
but I HOPE we always be a good friend.

Moon shine brightly,
to light the world while sun sleep,
I begin to start my heart's engine,
to enjoy night life,
to entertain my soul with night lights.
Fake mannequin,
Guys change into chic,
Girls try to dress like guys.
Nobody cares who you are,
The night is yours and mine,
The life only begin at night.
Moon shine brightly,
to light the world while I sleep.

Today i met someone. Its almost 6 month we didn't meet each others. Nothing can describe how much I miss him!? But today, i met erry (hehehe). Now, he at Pulapol (Pusat Latihan Polis) Kuala Lumpur. Whats he doing there? What police to do with him? Hehehehehehe...Actually,now he's a P.I.T a.k.a Police Inspector Training. COOL rite!! I'd never image that he will become a police inspector. He will be training 9 months in there. Now left 8 months. April 2008 erry "passing out" as a real inspector. dOwh!!

Then,I bought for him Mcd and KFC.. 1 fillet O fish, 1 bigMAC, 1 french fries, 1 strawberry shake and 1 mashed potatoes.. Banyakkan..(tahu takpe).. It is because inside there, he not feel like eating and guess what, he so thin (not because of dieting or starving from hard to get food), He's thin because he had and have to join a lots of activities from early 5 AM in the morning until 10PM. penatkan..

Nothing much we did inside there..we can't hug or whatsoever (hehehe). So we chat a lot about everything..(of course a lot to be chatting rite, 6 months tak jumpe..lalala). The big thing here..."He want to marry me!".dOwh!! What?!! hehehe.. Crazy right..but that's the truth. ME? I'm not ready yet.. I will but not for the time being but I DO LOVE HIM!! That's more important right. ;) I miss him a lot..tak puas jumpe erry tadi.. Next month erry baru boleh outing, Hope i could spend my time with him, watching movie, shopping,and have meal/dine together:)~~weeeeeeeeeeee~~