I just hanged out the phone. I called TAJAM, why can't I call him?
There’s nothing wrong rite! We’re just a friend! It’s been a long time we don’t talk/contact each others. Not because we were fighting or lost contact...but it because we both had other commitments. I did and do miss him a lot. We used to be so close, we were more than just a friend. I love him not because I loved him, but I do love him because of our friendship. There’s nothing can tear us apart even we both have our own partner. The bond of friendship in our relationship makes me feel grateful because Allah has given me HIM as a gift.

Even there’s was a HISTORY between us but that’s what LIFE is about. No one can question it? Or even question our relationship status. That’s not important to me, and I never quiet think about it. He's still my Tajam and the only Tajam in my life. Ya, I do admit that he used to break my heart and feeling. And he did it twice but a bond of our friendship makes me want to be with HIM. And I am a kind of person that forgives but not forget.

We do talked a lot about our life. He did ask me whether I do love him or not? And he even cried because he felt bad about himself for not take care my mum back in JB. Tajam loves my mum so much. He even worries about her. He's do apologized to me for not act upon his intention. We both cried! Share the same feeling.

To Tajam,
I always forgive you even you had broken my heart twice.
Plus, you rarely appreciate me in you life.
but I HOPE we always be a good friend.