I thought we’re friends. Why did you to lie to me?After you had confessed your feelings towards me, why did you walk away from me? You’re not walking alone; you’re walking with other girl. Why did you give me high hopes all this while, but then you ignore me like nothing happened.

Do you know it really hurts me? Maybe I'm just a girl next door… who only accompanies you when you miss your girl. When you got the chance to meet her, you got the chance to hold her in your arms…All you’re feeling towards me seem gone. It fades away like sand been swap by the ocean. I just don’t know where those feeling live. Its all seems gone with you. I feel like being neglected. And what make me torn apart is you act like I never exist. Do you know that I felt really hurt? The worst part is you don’t even know that I’m hurting. You left my heart a hole which it just recovered from a broken heart…but now, you make it even worse with those empty promises, empty hopes, empty courage, empty smile, its all empty. Why? Why? Why? What have I done wrong to you? Why are you doing this to me? Is this what people call karma? I’m hurt. I thought my heart could be paste with your sincere loves but then, after what I’ve discovered and seems a lot of lies and unfaithful promises from you. Why me? What have I done wrong to you? I wish I never met you. I wish I never knew you. I wish you never said those lovely pathetic words just to impress me. I wish you never ever see me cry.

I’m tired of this game. I tired of those puzzles that you’re trying to play with me.

I just can’t figure it out. Too many clues than I’ve never expected. I thought you were different. You’ve taught me to be faithful. You believe in me, but why you take all those pieces that I trying to complete after all I have been through. I just don’t know why…And why this shit happened to me. Why can’t you be truth to me even those words that you are trying to say will hurt me. I don’t care if it hurts me but at least, you’re telling me the truth. I’m tired of guessing. I want an answer. Please give me an answer. I’m not smart enough to solve your fiendishly puzzles. It is so hard to be solved. I'm not as smartass as you. I’m not a great pretender like you. I’m so so naïve; I bet you know how naïve am I. But why are you taking advantage on me. Why? I believe in you like I believe in angel.

You know how special you're in my life. Maybe you don’t even care because you have her. Now, you get what you want. You got a chance to hold her in your arms but you make a hole in mine, How could you? How could you? I’m trying to understand you…I even trying so hard to get your attention. I want you to know that I care about you more than you know. Now, all the pieces that I’ve trying to fit falls piece by piece and it not only falls like that, it falls with bleeding heart and a fatal hole on it. Can you tell me, how to fix it back? I just don’t know how to fix it. Maybe it all will get better in time. Yes, it takes time. For this moment, these pieces don’t fit anymore. Anyway, don’t forget to wake me up when October end.

PS- I’m sorry if this upset you. I’m not trying to hurt you, but this is what I feel.